100 Random Things About Me
1) I have never really been in love. Sometimes I think I was but at the end of the day I know that I was seeing what I wanted.

2) My biggest fear is that one day all of my friends will be married with kids and I will still be living alone and a hugely secondary part of their lives.

3) I want children more than anything in the world and would be willing to do it alone if I could afford it.

4) I have made my peace with being single and know it isn’t the worst thing in the world.

5) I secretly love Jlo’s music.

6) I dance alone in my apartment a lot.

7) I love my friends too much and fear that’s why I don’t go after things I want because it might mean leaving them behind.

8) I like living in LA.

9) I think of my baby brother who died as a toddler and wonder how different things would be for my family if he hadn’t passed away.

10) I sometimes wish I lived in Boston so I could be near my new baby sister.

11) I fear that my sister will never really know me outside of pictures and stories.

12) I wish that I had a good relationship with my dad and brother.

13) I wonder if I don’t believe in love because how my parents raised me.

14) I am secretly a romantic.

15) I get tired of finding flaws with my body.

16) I am fat yet more in shape then a lot of people I know.

17) If I had a car I still wouldn’t really want to drive.

18) I always cry at the end of “Beautiful thing”.

19) All of my friends have skills I wish I had.

20) I sometimes wonder if I am to old for my “look” and need a make over.

21) I am amazed at how many of my friends know what is wrong with my life and yet don’t let me in on the information.

22) I want to be an advice columnist yet have no idea how to do it.

23) I was accepted at Emerson College as a TV production major.

24) I changed my major five days into college.

25) I think my apartment reflects my inner life… pretty, well-done and, like my apartment, few people see it.

26) I wish I looked more at my successes than my failures.

27) I am spoiled to a degree.

28) My three wishes would be to have 15% body with perfect teeth, a million dollars and that all who loved me were happy.

29) I have smoked for ten years.

30) I have not had an asthma attack since I started smoking.

31) I wish I went dancing more.

32) I wish all my friends loved each other.

33) I get jealous of certain people in my life on a semi-regular basis.

34) I wish I wasn’t as able to read people, situations and relationships as I am.

35) I wish I could make mends and forgive certain people.

36) I let people take advantage of me emotionally yet if they fuck with my money I will cut them out completely.

37) I have gone to bed hungry.

38) I like the messing with Matt Smith’s head.

39) I believe I have nice eyes.

40) If I could be any fictional character I would be Michael Tolliver from Tales of the City.

41) I don’t wear underwear that often.

42) I should get an AIDS test—just to be sure.

43) I miss living with most of my former roommates.

44) My favorite thing to do is stoop on my steps with random friends at 1 in the morning.

45) I love that I have red sneakers.

46) I wish that I had a belly ring but feel to fat to do it.

47) I sometimes miss working for Pier One.

48) I like doing home décor. I don’t know why.

49) I have had nude photos taken off me.

50) I have learned that a threesome is not a good idea.

51) That I should never try to love someone who doesn’t want it.

52) That if a guy takes me on a date and then buys tickets to two different movies—one for me, one for him-- I shouldn’t be dating him.

53) I have kept every piece of fan mail I have gotten for my writing.

54) I wonder if I have talent.

55) If I do, then why don’t I use it more?

56) I have had secret sex.

57) I wish I sang more karaoke.

58) I hate to wear ties.

59) I like helping my friends dress up for big events.

60) I briefly considered sex with the 711 guy—long story.

61) I have two half finished novels.

62) I wrote a show bible for a soap opera when I was in high school and this project was what got me accepted to NYU.

63) I have met Ashley from Otown.

64) I wonder what a tongue ring feels like kissing.

65) I have planned out my wedding in my head—even though I don’t believe in them.

66) The first dance would be to “Come What May” from Moulin Rouge.

67) I have had low-rise pants crack.

68) I have lied to many people.

69) I wish it wasn’t that easy to lie.

70) I have mad crushes on random male friends.

71) I have thought of almost of them sexually once.

72) I wonder why I run away from guys who talk to me at bars.

73) I have a street name—Sawyer.

74) My mom is my idol—to a degree.

75) I feel guilty at how hard my brother was pushed playing hockey.

76) I wish I hadn’t disappointed my dad by refusing to play.

77) I wonder whatever happened to the first boy I kissed, slept with and loved—Mike Dawson.

78) I sometimes debate tracking him down.

79) I own every book ever written about soap operas.

80) I read them when I am drunk and need to sober up.

81) I like cheese.

82) I have done drag once.

83) I wish I was more poetic with my words.

84) I like to watch MTV.

85) I wish I wasn’t frightened of Ani DiFranco.

86) I have had sex on the Esplanade in Boston.

87) I really wish I was friends with Eric.

88) I would like to write a great teenage novel.

89) Then make it into a cult movie.

90) I am secretly afraid of success.

91) I was afraid that I would become schizophrenic when I hit my twenties—runs in the family.

92) I wish I could go to Cairo.

93) I wish I was brave enough to wear my “I kiss Boys” shirt in public.

94) I miss Dawson’s Creek.

95) I would sleep with Rufus Wainwright—even though he is too skinny.

96) I would star in a porn film if offered the chance.

97) I have had more sex than most people know.

98) I miss my parents sometimes.

99) I wonder often if I am wasting time in LA.

100) I like roller-skating.