Forgiveness

I feel so ashamed. I did something so self-destructive the other night that it startled even me. I know why I was doing it, even saw it coming but did nothing to get out of the way and its scares even me. It’s hard when you see yourself as your own worst enemy and I hve to do something to change this pattern. I just need to try nd stop forcing things, to look into other avenues and give it time and room to grow.

I definitely need to stop beating myself up over it. That’s not going to much of anything. So here’s me trying to forgive myself. Let’s hope it’s enough.