Sadness

So I have been hit by a random wave of sadness. My mom sent me some pictures of my sister Meggy from Christmas and I just got so depressed. If you know me well then you know that I am not particularly close with my family--I haven't been home for a holiday in years--and there is no really reason other than I just don't have it in me to make the trip.

But today I realized that Meggy is getting big and my mom is getting older and I am missing out on so much. To Meggy I am just a picture on the wall and a voice on the phone. I'm not sure why this bother's me as much as this does but...

For some reason I want to cry. Weird. I guess I do have a heart.