Thursday, May 27, 2004

This is really sad...Come on now people!

KHAKI COUTURE: Sex and the City's Sarah Jessica Parker is trading in vintage ball gowns and Manolo Blahniks for gaucho pants and jelly thongs. The 39-year-old fashion icon has inked a yearlong deal to serve as pitchwoman for the Gap. She'll appear in a series of print and television ads beginning in August.

oh yeah--just in time for my birthday... My style icon--gone

Wednesday, May 26, 2004

I just wanna...

I just want to call in fat today... No work, no friends, no public apprences....

Saturday, May 22, 2004

The Strangest Memories...

So I am sitting in my apartment, working on my new play, just typing with the radio playing in the background... Listening to the easy listening station because sometimes it is just easier than dealing with the new stuff when I was overcome with the most random of memories...

I was on the Common back in Boston, on a blanket at the free Mix 98.7 concert with random friends. It was early and warm with a bad act on stage... She is singing a remix of an 80's fav and we were all insulting her, making fun of her dancing... I think someone (most likely me) yelled a borderline death at the too old woman doing too awkward dance steps and for a moment, here in LA... I had to laugh at how we all once were...

DAMN YOU NIKKI FRENCH AND YOUR BAD COVER OF "TOTAL ECLISPE OF THE HEART"!

Friday, May 21, 2004

What do I have to do here?

A Honest Question... When will I meet a guy I don't want to slap upside the head? I mean, they open their mouths and I just think "bamm!". Taking bets on this one people...
This Wrong But Funny...

Two Gay Guys are walking through a zoo... They come across the gorilla and
>notice that the male gorilla has a massive erection. The gay men are
>fascinated by this. One of the men just can't bear it any longer, and he
>reaches into the cage to touch it. The gorilla grabs him, drags him into
>the cage and mates with him for six hours, non-stop, while the zoo
>attendants helplessly stand by.... When he's done, the gorilla throws the
>man out of the cage. An ambulance is called and the man is taken away to
>the hospital. A few days later, his friend visits him in the hospital and
>asks, "Are you hurt?" "AM I HURT?" he shouts, "Wouldn't you be ? He hasn't
>called....he hasn't written....."
A Honest Question...

When will I meet a guy I don't want to slap upside the head? I mean, they open their mouths and I just think "bamm!". Taking bets on this one people...

Thursday, May 20, 2004

Metropolitan Feeling....

Young and pretty, New York City girl...
25, 35 hello baby, New York City girl...
You grew up riding the subways, running with people,
Up in Harlem, down on Broadway.
You're no tramp but you're no lady, talking that street talk.
You're the heart and soul of New York City.
And love...love is just a passing word.
It's that thought you had in a taxi cab, that got left on the curb when he dropped you off and he stated "Girl...you're a native New Yorker."
You should know the score by now, you're a native New Yorker."
I finally got it

Yoga today was immensely spiritual. It felt like mediation.
Metropolitan Feeling....

Young and pretty,
New York City girl...
25, 35 hello baby,
New York City girl...

YOu grew up riding the subways,
running with people,
Up in Harlem, down on Broadway.
You're no tramp but you're no lady,
talking that street talk.
You're the heart and soul of New York City.

And love...love is just a passing word.
It's that thought you had in a taxi cab,
that got left on the curb
when he dropped you off and he stated
"Girl...you're a native New Yorker."

You should know the score by now,
you're a native New Yorker."

Tuesday, May 18, 2004

The men I met...

A while back I started an e-mail flirtation with this guy Teejay... One day, he wrote something about having a new boyfriend and then he didn't write me for a month... So I assumed things are done... Then out of the blue he emails me and when i ask about the bf... He tells me it was his roommate pulling a prank... I don't believe him that much... But then he e-mails this

When you thought i was seeing someone you took yourself off my friends list....do you think of me as a potential BF?


And so I wrote back this

Hmmm... Interesting question. Whathappened was one, the picture on your profile changed. There was a blog posting and then you didn't write me for almost a month... I figured that you were looking at me as bf potienal and weren't interested in talking with me anymore. So I decided that you were done with me and I cut my losses. Honestly, I don't know what I want but if you are one of those guys who just wants any guy for a boy friend then time is being wasted. (sorry to be blunt but you wanted honesty.

So now what? Hmm...

Monday, May 17, 2004

This just made my morning

The thing about being gay is...

When someone turns his back on you, you actually consider it an opportunity.

Sunday, May 16, 2004

Just a moments pause

Okay, this will make me a major loser but as a huge fan of General Hospital--I just wanted to take a moment to pause and thank Anna Lee (Lila Quatermaine) for all her great years of work and memories. She passed away this past Sunday night. Thanks for the great memories where ever you are.
Just a moments pause

Okay, this will make me a major loser but as a huge fan of General Hospital--I just wanted to take a moment to pause and thank Anna Lee (Lila Quatermaine) for all her great years of work and memories. She passed away this past Sunday night. Thanks for the great memories where ever you are.

Saturday, May 15, 2004

Things learned this Weekend—for Chloe…

Knockers are only for the front door—not the back. If you ain’t a celebrity then you ain’t going in the backdoor. Keep the hardware out of the bedroom—no need for a weapon check between the sheets. Beware of friends with balconies and hooking up with their neighbors—someone will always see you…. If he takes a shower before you go out—beware his wandering hands.
Demin Disaters!!!

I only relate this story because it has made me laugh several times since the event. Last night at about 2 in the morning I heard a slight popping sound. I didn't think anything odd about it because it was a Friday and my building has still partying hard. Imagine this morning when, in a sleep daze, I opened my closet and saw demin spread across the floor. Turns out my closet had given up the fight and decide to let loose with my entire jean collection. The bar had snapped clean in half due to the weight of my beloved pant of choice. The inventory... numbers of funky wash jeans 3 pants that make slim 2 pants that are on last legs 3 pants that were bought due to MTV 2 pants that make me look squat 3 pants that look classy yet still jeans 1 pant that look good when 10 pounds less 2 Maybe I should see what I can clear out eh?
Things learned this Weekend—for Chloe…

Knockers are only for the front door—not the back.

If you ain’t a celebrity then you ain’t going in the backdoor.

Keep the hardware out of the bedroom—no need for a weapon check between the sheets.

Beware of friends with balconies and hooking up with their neighbors—someone will always see you….

If he takes a shower before you go out—beware his wandering hands.
Demin Disaters!!!

I only relate this story because it has made me laugh several times since the event. Last night at about 2 in the morning I heard a slight popping sound. I didn't think anything odd about it because it was a Friday and my building has still partying hard.

Imagine this morning when, in a sleep daze, I opened my closet and saw demin spread across the floor. Turns out my closet had given up the fight and decide to let loose with my entire jean collection. The bar had snapped clean in half due to the weight of my beloved pant of choice.

The inventory...

numbers of funky wash jeans 3
pants that make slim 2
pants that are on last legs 3
pants that were bought due to MTV 2
pants that make me look squat 3
pants that look classy yet still jeans 1
pant that look good when 10 pounds less 2

Maybe I should see what I can clear out eh?
Leason Learned.....

http://www.smlinks.com/sotw/why/

Thursday, May 13, 2004

Even I know this is wrong....

Hard to Find Women's March on Television News
May 3, 2004

On Sunday, April 25, hundreds of thousands of people filled the streets of Washington, D.C. to demonstrate for women's reproductive rights. Crowd estimates ranged from 500,000 to 1.15 million, but it was clear that the March for Women's Lives was one of the largest demonstrations in the capital's history-and perhaps the largest ever. One might have expected, then, to see extensive coverage on national television-but a look at both network and cable news during the days surrounding the march turned up remarkably few reports. A Nexis search of the week surrounding the women's march found a total of six stories from the broadcast networks (not counting incidental mentions of the march): CBS ran one story the day of the march and two the next morning; NBC ran two stories and ABC only one, all on April 25. CNN, as a 24-hour cable news outlet, gave more extensive coverage to the event, running several reports on Sunday. But even CNN failed to treat the march as the historic occasion that it was, running just a small handful of brief march-related stories on Saturday and Monday. Other cable news outlets focused not on the march itself but on abortion opponents, a few hundred of whom held a counter-protest at the march. Of three Fox News stories found on Nexis related to the march, two focused on anti-abortion activists (Special Report with Brit Hume, Hannity & Colmes, 4/22/04). Special Report examined anti-abortion opposition to the National Education Association's endorsement of the march-a story that MSNBC also covered in that network's only march report found in the Nexis database. (Fox and MSNBC do not transcribe their news coverage as thoroughly as CNN does, so the amount of coverage on the three cable channels cannot be compared.) To put the women's march coverage in perspective, FAIR conducted a similar Nexis search of the week surrounding the Promise Keepers march in 1997. The Promise Keepers, an evangelical men's organization that has been widely accused of promoting misogyny and homophobia, drew an estimated 480,000-750,000 demonstrators to Washington-roughly three-quarters the size of the women's march. Despite its somewhat smaller size, the Promise Keepers received much more media attention: Stories began appearing on network news three days before the march and continued for two days afterward, with a total of 19 stories between the three networks-more than three times the coverage the networks devoted to the women's march. Was the Promise Keepers march three times more newsworthy than the March for Women's Lives? Why such little coverage? Women's issues routinely get short shrift in the media, and during this election year, news outlets found even more reason to discount women's voices. NBC Nightly News reporter Jeannie Ohm asked (4/25/04), "But just how big a factor will abortion rights have in the November election?... Political analysts say it's the economy and jobs, war in Iraq, homeland security and health care that will have more of an impact with undecided voters." CNN correspondent Elaine Quijano sounded a similar note (4/25/04): "This election year, each group hopes to spark renewed interest, enough to have an impact at the ballot box. But political analysts say more than three decades after Roe v. Wade, most voters have already made up their minds." A record-breaking number of people-mostly women-marched on Washington to demonstrate their commitment to women's rights and their dissatisfaction with Bush's record on women's issues. By minimizing coverage of the event and reducing women's rights to a low-ranking concern in the presidential horse race, television news stifled critical public dialogue on women's rights and health, and relegated women and their concerns to the sidelines. ACTION: Please let the networks know that you were disappointed by the scant coverage given to the historic March for Women's Lives. CONTACT: ABC World News Tonight Phone: 212-456-4040 mailto:PeterJennings@abcnews.com CBS Evening News Phone: 212-975-3691 mailto:evening@cbsnews.com NBC Nightly News Phone: 212-664-4971 mailto:nightly@nbc.com




Coma Boy

Sofor some odd reason I slept for two hours today... I dreamed about Thad from TW, Nanny Fine (Points if you know that) and Nicole Eggert (or was it Jamie Presley with bangs....?) It was odd and like a bad pool party/teen flick gone horribly bad. Well, until the Scott brothers from "One Tree Hill" showed up.... Then it just got creative... Oh my bad, bad, bad imagination....
Even I know this is wrong....

Hard to Find Women's March on Television News
May 3, 2004

On Sunday, April 25, hundreds of thousands of people filled the streets of
Washington, D.C. to demonstrate for women's reproductive rights. Crowd
estimates ranged from 500,000 to 1.15 million, but it was clear that the
March for Women's Lives was one of the largest demonstrations in the
capital's history-and perhaps the largest ever. One might have
expected, then, to see extensive coverage on national television-but a
look at both network and cable news during the days surrounding the march
turned up remarkably few reports.

A Nexis search of the week surrounding the women's march found a total of
six stories from the broadcast networks (not counting incidental mentions
of the march): CBS ran one story the day of the march and two the next
morning; NBC ran two stories and ABC only one, all on April 25. CNN, as a
24-hour cable news outlet, gave more extensive coverage to the event,
running several reports on Sunday. But even CNN failed to treat the march
as the historic occasion that it was, running just a small handful of
brief march-related stories on Saturday and Monday.

Other cable news outlets focused not on the march itself but on abortion
opponents, a few hundred of whom held a counter-protest at the march. Of
three Fox News stories found on Nexis related to the march, two focused on
anti-abortion activists (Special Report with Brit Hume, Hannity & Colmes,
4/22/04). Special Report examined anti-abortion opposition to the
National Education Association's endorsement of the march-a story that
MSNBC also covered in that network's only march report found in the Nexis
database. (Fox and MSNBC do not transcribe their news coverage as
thoroughly as CNN does, so the amount of coverage on the three cable
channels cannot be compared.)

To put the women's march coverage in perspective, FAIR conducted a similar
Nexis search of the week surrounding the Promise Keepers march in 1997.
The Promise Keepers, an evangelical men's organization that has been
widely accused of promoting misogyny and homophobia, drew an estimated
480,000-750,000 demonstrators to Washington-roughly three-quarters the
size of the women's march. Despite its somewhat smaller size, the Promise
Keepers received much more media attention: Stories began appearing on
network news three days before the march and continued for two days
afterward, with a total of 19 stories between the three networks-more
than three times the coverage the networks devoted to the women's march.
Was the Promise Keepers march three times more newsworthy than the March for
Women's Lives?
Why such little coverage? Women's issues routinely get short shrift in
the media, and during this election year, news outlets found even more
reason to discount women's voices. NBC Nightly News reporter Jeannie Ohm
asked (4/25/04), "But just how big a factor will abortion rights have in
the November election?... Political analysts say it's the economy and
jobs, war in Iraq, homeland security and health care that will have more
of an impact with undecided voters." CNN correspondent Elaine Quijano
sounded a similar note (4/25/04): "This election year, each group hopes to
spark renewed interest, enough to have an impact at the ballot box. But
political analysts say more than three decades after Roe v. Wade, most
voters have already made up their minds."

A record-breaking number of people-mostly women-marched on Washington
to demonstrate their commitment to women's rights and their
dissatisfaction with Bush's record on women's issues. By minimizing
coverage of the event and reducing women's rights to a low-ranking concern
in the presidential horse race, television news stifled critical public
dialogue on women's rights and health, and relegated women and their
concerns to the sidelines.

ACTION: Please let the networks know that you were disappointed by the
scant coverage given to the historic March for Women's Lives.

CONTACT:
ABC World News Tonight
Phone: 212-456-4040
mailto:PeterJennings@abcnews.com

CBS Evening News
Phone: 212-975-3691
mailto:evening@cbsnews.com

NBC Nightly News
Phone: 212-664-4971
mailto:nightly@nbc.com

It's all mine...

It's odd but I realized that today I have nothing to do for anyone... I am my own keeper for the day and what to do with all that time? Hmm...

Wednesday, May 12, 2004

Reasons to google self.

Just found out that I was republished on another website... Gaysports.com... How odd yet fun...
Berg

There is a sadness today—it began with reading Lucy’s blog about Nick Berg and the beheading. I understand how this chain of events started…9/11, Afghanistan, Iraq, the prisoner abuse, and now the death of Nick Berg. On paper it is all logical—how the soldiers were just doing what they were told, how the press released the information so that the military would be held accountable. That the government had opening hearings about to show the world that the US was serious about taking people to task for what was done to the prisoners. On some level I even understand the mentality of what was done to Nick Berg by the fundamentalists. And because I understand that progression, it becomes somewhat easy to go about my day. To food shop, sketch design plans, make dates for drinks or coffee. Where my sadness comes in is that moment when I stop and try to imagine the reality of Nick Berg. Did he realize that he was going to die? Did he think that he might get through the situation? Did he blame our government and our military for what happened to him? But what makes me saddest of all is to think of his parents. To have your child die, to have him die in such an awful way, that there is even a tape of this murder, that somewhere someone is watching it and cheering—or worse—not caring… That your son be some type of entertainment… For some reason, this makes me saddest of all.
Reasons to google self.
Just found out that I was republished on another website... Gaysports.com... How odd yet fun...
Berg
There is a sadness today—it began with reading Lucy’s blog about Nick Berg and the beheading. I understand how this chain of events started…9/11, Afghanistan, Iraq, the prisoner abuse, and now the death of Nick Berg. On paper it is all logical—how the soldiers were just doing what they were told, how the press released the information so that the military would be held accountable. That the government had opening hearings about to show the world that the US was serious about taking people to task for what was done to the prisoners. On some level I even understand the mentality of what was done to Nick Berg by the fundamentalists.

And because I understand that progression, it becomes somewhat easy to go about my day. To food shop, sketch design plans, make dates for drinks or coffee. Where my sadness comes in is that moment when I stop and try to imagine the reality of Nick Berg. Did he realize that he was going to die? Did he think that he might get through the situation? Did he blame our government and our military for what happened to him?

But what makes me saddest of all is to think of his parents. To have your child die, to have him die in such an awful way, that there is even a tape of this murder, that somewhere someone is watching it and cheering—or worse—not caring… That your son be some type of entertainment… For some reason, this makes me saddest of all.
Inspire Me...

So I had a weird moment last night... I was wondering if I was meant to be a writer and then I was watching "Motley Crue" Behind the music and Tommy Lee spoke about how he felt about his music. That he was here on earth to write music. Which made me wonder whether I really believe that I am here to be a writer... It is an interesting question. Another one to throw on the barbie...

Tuesday, May 11, 2004

My weekend or Rory randomness

So my weekend was filled with only the random events that I seem able to pull off. I spent friday with kirby and we went to Robbie's loft to see what type of magic I could do. He wants some help designing/cleaning up the place and is willing to pay me to do it. Of course, the major task of hanging his big ass mircowave is the ONE thing I can't seem to do. And he has given me very little direction, no budget and very little idea of what he needs first. And on top of that, I feel guilty that Kirby has to do all the work with me and stuff so... Just hard. (that and I have no idea what I will be paid when I actually do stuff.)

But Kirby and I did go see "Van Halsen" and well, I lost two hours of my life. Though I did manage to laugh alot... Saturday was Charity's day and with all out of town for the big college wedding I agreed to hang with her family for lack of other options. BUt the family is nice and friendly and it was fun. Well, untill I had to dive fully dressed into the deep end of the pool to pull out a three year old who was borderline drowning. That was a little scary but makes me glad that TW taught me CPR. Kitty was fine after she got over the shock but my smokes went on to a better place... I got burned as well but it was all good.

Then Sunday belong to my new pseudo mom--Chloe. I made my way to Hollywood and went to coffee, grocery store and other random adventures. We called Lucy after we were stalked by enmeas... That and I saw a lot of random friends that I chose not to say hi too. Don't know either. I do worry that I upset Chloe with my decision about San Fran and my neeed to wait a year--I wish that I could just make a snap choice and do it but I need t feel that I have done all I can with LA and I still feel like I haven't. Part of me wants to push her to go, not to wait and if I move up later then we can deal with it then... I just felt so bad. And it wasn't her fault. Then I got to hang at her place and have meatloaf (a new food to me) and potatoes and just hang out with her other friends... My only conculsion? That Chloe needs to hit up boxer boy... YOu know what I mean.

SO the final count of Rory's weekend.
Number of Pseudo jobs 1
Number of Children saved 1
Number of soulful talks 3
Number of hours lost 2
Number of momments spent being an idiot Uncountable
My weekend or Rory randomness

So my weekend was filled with only the random events that I seem able to pull off. I spent friday with kirby and we went to Robbie's loft to see what type of magic I could do. He wants some help designing/cleaning up the place and is willing to pay me to do it. Of course, the major task of hanging his big ass mircowave is the ONE thing I can't seem to do. And he has given me very little dircetion, no budget and very little idea of what he needs first. And on top of that, I feel guilty that Kirby has to do all the work with me and stuff so... Just hard. (that and I have no idea what I will be paid when I actually do stuff.) But Kirby and I did go see "Van Halsen" and well, I lost two hours of my life. Though I did manage to laugh alot...

Saturday was Charity's day and with all out of town for the big college wedding I agreed to hang with her family for lack of other options. BUt the family is nice and friendly and it was fun. Well, untill I had to dive fully dressed into the deep end of the pool to pull out a three year old who was borderline drowning. That was a little scary but makes me glad that TW taught me CPR. Kitty was fine after she got over the shock but my smokes went on to a better place... I got burned as well but it was all good.

Then Sunday belong to my new pseudo mom--Chloe. I made my way to Hollywood and went to coffee, grocery store and other random adventures. We called Lucy after we were stalked by enmeas... That and I saw a lot of random friends that I chose not to say hi too. Don't know either. I do worry that I upset Chloe with my decision about San Fran and my neeed to wait a year--I wish that I could just make a snap choice and do it but I need t feel that I have done all I can with LA and I still feel like I haven't. Part of me wants to push her to go, not to wait and if I move up later then we can deal with it then... I just felt so bad. And it wasn't her fault.

Then I got to hang at her place and have meatloaf (a new food to me) and potatoes and just hang out with her other friends... My only conculsion? That Chloe needs to hit up boxer boy... YOu know what I mean. SO the final count of Rory's weekend.

Number of Pseudo jobs 1
Number of Children saved 1
Number of soulful talks 3
Number of hours lost 2
Number of momments spent being an idiot Uncountable
mOney Money Money

Just kind of had a slight freak out today about money.... NOt really working and have nothing coming in is freaking me out a little bit. The big thing is I have enough to cover rent and food and the aprt bills but not enough for my other bills. I should try calling places and explain my situtation but am afraid that they will just yell at me. I guess I should just sack up but-- I just worry that they brow beat me into making promises that I can't live up to... *sigh*

Sunday, May 09, 2004

Political or Hot?LOL

SNL... Parody of Friends finale with Bush/Rusmfield as Rachel and Ross... I haven't laughed so hard in a long time. (Is it disturbing that I found it kind of hot when the actors playing Bush and Rumes were kissing? )
SNL...
Parody of Friends finale with Bush/Rusmfield as Rachel and Ross... I haven't laughed so hard in a long time. (Is it disturbing that I found it kind of hot when the actors playing Bush and Rumes were kissing? )

Thursday, May 06, 2004

And for the talent portion....

Okay... So I was watching a random coke ad when one of the kids in it opened a bottle of coke off of a guy's belt buckle while he was still wearing it. For some reason this seems like a cool trick to learn and much more acceptable than showing off how I can undo button flies with my teeth. (at least in public!)
Now for the talent portion

Okay... So I was watching a random coke ad when one of the kids in it opened a bottle of coke off of a guy's belt buckle while he was still wearing it. For some reason this seems like a cool trick to learn and much more acceptable than showing off how I can undo button flies with my teeth. (at least in public!)

Wednesday, May 05, 2004

Okay...my baby daddy is back...
Tonight saw new ads for TODD OLDMAN's new collection for Lazyboy. I love him. More than I can say. Really. I want the entire first 2 seasons of House of Style because he was on it. I owe many things of his from the Target line. I have kept a pair of pants of his that I bought my freshmen year of college. I love him.... A friend of mine in college knew friends of his and got me Todd's home phone number. I called once when drunk, listen him pick up and hung up ala "Sweet Valley High". And went to the Aladdin hotel the opening because he designed the indoor mall. Okay... Must stop thinking of him.
A Needed Push

Last night the meeting of my writing provided a needed spot check. Ruby, Kirby and I discussed several of my shortcomings and they helped me feel better about my life here and that it can be better if I choose to take steps forward. This made me realize that it is my life to choose and push forward with my goals. It helped alot.
Okay...my baby daddy is back...

Tonight saw new ads for TODD OLDMAN's new collection for Lazyboy. I love him. More than I can say. Really. I want the entire first 2 seasons of House of Style because he was on it. I owe many things of his from the Target line. I have kept a pair of pants of his that I bought my freshmen year of college. I love him.... A friend of mine in college knew friends of his and got me Todd's home phone number. I called once when drunk, listen him pick up and hung up ala "Sweet Valley High". And went to the Aladdin hotel the opening because he designed the indoor mall. Okay... Must stop thinking of him.
Good horoscope

You could begin a project today that is destined for greatness. Setbacks of the recent past are long-forgotten tunes. Your new focus is squarely on the future. The recent Full Moon guides your intuition.
Good sign?

You could begin a project today that is destined for greatness. Setbacks of the recent past are long-forgotten tunes. Your new focus is squarely on the future. The recent Full Moon guides your intuition.

Tuesday, May 04, 2004

I'm not politcal but....

Okay.... I'm not politcal but.... Okay. Am I the only one really bothered by this new wave of anti-abortion ads? The girl running at night who talks about how having an abortion would be running away from her responisbilties... (Get it? Running and running...) Or the female firefighter who talks about how her mom almost aborted her but her mom didn't just make the right choice by saving her daughter's life but her daughter saves lives... (thus meaning that all those kids lost could be doctor or cops or fire fighters...) I guess I am just kind of shocked at the cheap sentiment involved in these ads and question the sanity of those involved... I am pro choice but even I could make better anti abortion ads... (And by the way, whose mother tells their child "hey, I almost aborted you". Really now!!!) Okay, now you can yell at the gay for butting in but come on!
No Sleep Till...?

It’s odd—the last couple of nights I have barely slept. It’s not the heat, at least it has never bothered me that way before. I guess it could be some type of stress but I just finally got the job that I want, I have no real issues with any friends at the moment and have been keeping a low profile of sorts. I suspect that this stress is all because of my San Fran conversations with both Chloe and Charity. It’s hard to figure out what to do and I just feel like I can’t confide in many people about it—mostly because I think that they will try and convince me that it is not a real option. I wonder about that to, whether I’m just dodging a bullet by considering it. But I can’t over look how in love I am with that place, the way it seems to light me up and make me feel so— I don’t know… Like I came home… But this isn’t even a real choice at the moment. I wouldn’t be able to do anything for a year so—why would this be a factor now? I don’t know. Maybe it is the heat… There is a first time for everything
Okay.... I'm not politcal but....

Okay. Am I the only one really bothered by this new wave of anti-abortion ads? The girl running at night who talks about how having an abortion would be running away from her responisbilties... (Get it? Running and running...) Or the female firefighter who talks about how her mom almost aborted her but her mom didn't just make the right choice by saving her daughter's life but her daughter saves lives... (thus meaning that all those kids lost could be doctor or cops or fire fighters...) I guess I am just kind of shocked at the cheap sentiment involved in these ads and question the sanity of those involved... I am pro choice but even I could make better anti abortion ads... (And by the way, whose mother tells their child "hey, I almost aborted you". Really now!!!) Okay, now you can yell at the gay for butting in but come on!

No Sleep Till…?

It’s odd—the last couple of nights I have barely slept. It’s not the heat, at least it has never bothered me that way before. I guess it could be some type of stress but I just finally got the job that I want, I have no real issues with any friends at the moment and have been keeping a low profile of sorts.

I suspect that this stress is all because of my San Fran conversations with both Chloe and Charity. It’s hard to figure out what to do and I just feel like I can’t confide in many people about it—mostly because I think that they will try and convince me that it is not a real option. I wonder about that to, whether I’m just dodging a bullet by considering it. But I can’t over look how in love I am with that place, the way it seems to light me up and make me feel so— I don’t know… Like I came home…

But this isn’t even a real choice at the moment. I wouldn’t be able to do anything for a year so—why would this be a factor now? I don’t know. Maybe it is the heat… There is a first time for everything.

Sunday, May 02, 2004

No Shock here

My life is rated NC-17.
What is your life rated?